Guess what I just did? I irrigated my mouth stitches with special mouthwash prescribed by my dentist. That’s right, I inserted a little syringe into the back of my mouth and sprayed out all those harmful little soul-sucking bacteria. How’s that for sexy? Can you feel it?
Since I can’t drink (well, I can, but codeine causes all kinds of shitfacedness), I’m joining my lovely girls for an evening of food (which I can’t eat), champagne (which I can’t drink) and general gossip (I can’t laugh, it hurts).
But this rest period? Effing amazing. I could definitely work from home, my productivity is skyrocketing. Too bad my coworkers refuse to reply to my emails.
My travel narrative blog should be up before the weekend is over, and I’m pretty stoked about it. MAD STOKED. I’m so sorry I’ve been neglecting to add linkage to all my new readers, plus the Matador Team, but it seemed like such an unnecessary task as I’m also still waiting for That’s Tangly to launch. I hate this blog and I can’t wait for it to be done with. FOREVER. *lightning flashes* Please be sure that I will give appropriate bucketfuls of love to my loyal readers when I can.
Aside: I’m absolutely loving my new position as associate editor. LOVE IT. I’m flinging myself enthusiastically into the process, possibly biting off more than I can chew, but I love it. There’s amazing stuff happening over at Matador.

This is how I used to look before a dentist ripped into my gums and hauled out two big 'ol wisdom teeth.
So sitting here for the last few days have inspired a lot of thinking. Yesterday, while all my American buds were celebrating Thanksgiving, I thought about how much I have to be thankful for. My friends, my family, my new gig with Matador (when I come home from work in the evenings I’m usually up til 1 a.m., writing, brainstorming, and catching up on blogs, and I don’t mind it one bit). I realize that every decision I have made has led me in the right direction, because I’ve followed my heart.
If I could offer one piece of advice to anyone, it would be to do that: follow your heart. Ditch things that don’t feel right. My lord how many times did I have to push aside the negativity and “are you going to be a teacher?” comments when I announced studying English at Memorial University. But I knew it was what I loved doing, and I know for a fact you can only excel at something if you enjoy it.
So here I am, six years later, with a pretty sweet career, a modest Internet footprint in the making, and a sweet-ass position with an online travel magazine.
And I’m still restless. I hate saying this because I know I have coworker(s) reading, but I assume within a few years I’ll be out of here. I love St. John’s, but lately this place makes me feel very lonely and limited. I need to get out. I need to experience different places. But how can I do that with my debt? I will never be one of those people to push my responsibilities aside. I will never run from student loans or forget about line of credit payments.
But fuck, it’s disheartening. My plan is to pay off all my debt within 5 years, save cash, and hit the road on a Round the World trip. But by that time, I’ll be 28. I know, that’s still young, but I’m losing time. I don’t want to waste a minute.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m a giant wiener.
Speaking of debt, Christmas shopping begins tomorrow if I’m brave enough to face the world with cheeks the size of grapefruits. And my mother called me a pussy today because I won’t drink the prune juice that expired in September 2009. I love my mom.







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November 27, 2009 at 10:03 pm
JoAnna
Changes might happen before you expect them to. I was planning on quitting my job in 2012, but the stars aligned and here I am today. Don’t get down on yourself … just keep pursuing your dream.
November 29, 2009 at 4:49 am
angryredhead
Thanks JoAnna, pretty amazing you achieved your goal 3 years ahead of time! Awesome.
November 27, 2009 at 10:14 pm
Ashley
Hey Candice really admire your determination working on your writing after work til 1am. Wish I had such determination ….. Your passion shows in your writing. You have inspired me to get off my butt and start writing.
November 29, 2009 at 4:52 am
angryredhead
Thanks, Ashley! I really appreciate you saying so, and thanks for dropping by.
November 27, 2009 at 10:19 pm
Nancy
Follow your heart, indeed. Just keep doing that and you’ll be deliriously happy. Busy, but happy.
I’m stoked for your new blog too. woot woot. Can’t wait.
November 29, 2009 at 5:03 am
angryredhead
Thanks, Nancy! I always appreciate your support.
November 28, 2009 at 12:05 am
ClassroomConfessions
Let’s do it together! I will start working on paying my debt now and then I want to get the heck out of dodge! I get so restless sometimes. It seems like you are on the right track to having a pretty sweet life. I can’t wait for the new blogs to launch
November 29, 2009 at 5:04 am
angryredhead
Thanks, I hope you’re right! And we should definitely do it, although I kinda wanna drop by your neighborhood to check out what it’s like to wear thin clothing in November, hahahaha.
November 28, 2009 at 12:34 am
J
I wouldn’t drink prune juice ANYWAY, let alone the expired kind.
Glad you’re doing so well, chica.
November 29, 2009 at 5:04 am
angryredhead
Yeah, it’s rank no matter what. Aghhhh.
November 28, 2009 at 1:09 am
linlah
someone once said to me “you’ll never get anywhere if you stay where you are”, yeah I know very profound but I was in my 20′s when he said it and I’ve never forgotten and often use it to remind myself to move forward.
November 29, 2009 at 5:05 am
angryredhead
you’re so right, and it’s so hard to gather up that courage, considering here i have the safety net of all my friends, family, job, etc…
November 28, 2009 at 1:48 am
david miller
you freaking rock candice.
November 29, 2009 at 5:05 am
angryredhead
David, I love hearing that coming from you. Thanks!
November 28, 2009 at 7:39 am
Eric
Sounds like you are really enjoying the new position at Matador. That’s great. There is nothing like loving your job. It took me a long time to realize that sometimes you just have to say screw it and move on to do what you really want to do. It took me moving half way around the world to find a job I really enjoy that will also enable me to travel. Like you I want to travel around the world. I just wish I would have done this sooner, but it’s never too late.
November 28, 2009 at 8:53 am
AdventureRob
Glad you are getting on so well Candice, is there not a way to put your debt and job on hold for a while? A quick round the world trip would do you good to feed the wanderlust rather than wait until 28.
November 28, 2009 at 9:05 am
Doriana (Traveleze)
Always follow your heart.
I didn’t, and I still have one big regret. Now, more than ever. You’re young, smart, talented, and mad enough, just go for it! Congrats for your new position at Matador! I’m so happy for you
November 28, 2009 at 10:51 am
Sabina
Oh, Candice, I learned so much about you in this post. I’m very glad to hear you’re not the type to bolt from your debt. And the follow your heart advice I think is wise. But really, even if you leave St. John’s at 28 and travel the world or live abroad for 10 years, you can still come back and settle down and have a family all those years later. Please don’t think of yourself as losing time. You’re really not.
November 28, 2009 at 1:45 pm
Sherri
This time of the year makes me nuts. We’re working on paying down debt and this year is the second year that all gifts will be bought with cash. The other day I was shopping and a cashier asked me which credit card I would be using. I said, “I’m not. I’m using cash.” Her brain exploded and I had to find a different cashier.
November 28, 2009 at 9:14 pm
*uncorked
Nice to see that by losing your wisdom teeth you haven’t lost your spunk. I think your plan sounds great and I love working from home – it makes me so happy. I don’t get to do it as often anymore since I’m managing a bunch of attorneys here in Chicago, but I find that I’m much more productive as well. Keep it up darlin’ – you’re kicking ass.
November 29, 2009 at 4:19 am
nashe
You got this! Everything is looking exciting for you here!
But before you launch the new site or go jetting everywhere, how bout a little picture of how you look like now, post-wisdomtooth extraction?
November 29, 2009 at 5:09 am
angryredhead
@Eric: So true, I’m glad things are going well in SK! Definitely loving the new position.
@Rob: I thought about it, but there really isn’t..but hopefully with pay increases/new opportunities I’ll be able to cut that time down by at least a year or two.
@Doriana: Thank you, and thanks for dropping by! Sorry to hear you have regrets, perhaps they can be changed?
@Sabina: Thanks Sabina, I’m really happy you’re so constantly supportive. And I know you’re right, perhaps I’m just going through a quarter-life crisis…?
@Sherri: LOL, yeah, three hours at the mall today was more than I could handle for real.
@V: Thanks V! Nothing like working on the couch in jammies, is there?
@Nashe: Thanks!!! And I considered doing something outlandish like taking a photo of my bloody, dismantled wisdom teeth…but changed my mind…hahaha
November 29, 2009 at 4:13 pm
Kris
Hope the ginger chipmunk is doing ok, lol. How are the happy pills treating you? Waiting for a few pics to come back from playing last night, it was a good time and I got effin housed at the bar:) Keep yourself on track, I hate my job and am headed back to school again to try for something better.\
November 29, 2009 at 4:47 pm
Corbin
The wisdom teeth, ugh. Been there man. They did the whole gum cutting thing to me too. Looked like i got double punched by mike tyson for like 2 weeks.
I was in the same boat at one time with the whole boatloads of debt. Mind you I didn’t have mass student debts. If it wasn’t for me selling just about everything I owned I probably wouldn’t have ever been able to do as much travel as I do. Selling your vehicle always helps, not sure if you even have an “angry-red-mobile”, lol, but if you do, just remember that can always help a bit? Might even get more if you tell them ur “kind of a big deal” on the internet…
November 29, 2009 at 11:17 pm
Christopher Mercer
I believe you can still do all you want to do. Pay off that debt, save some cash, travel the world. Who cares if you are 28 or 82. Age is just a number and you should never let it limit you. There is no right or wrong way to live your life, it is yours to live as you see fit.
Anyone who questions that should have a long look in the mirror that hangs in the glass house they live in, if you get my drift.
As for St John’s I know how you feel. Though I left and the result has given me greater potential in what I have chosen to do with my life. It’s a littler lonelier but the career is going well and it is allowing me to do the things I want. I did that with the debt I have. If I can, you should be able to do it.
Keep your spirits up and focused on the goal.
November 30, 2009 at 4:03 am
angryredhead
@Kris: I’m off the happy pills, damn things kept making me fall asleep. Hah! Ill try to work on your resume.
@Corbin: Ahh, sounds lovely but I have nothing of value to sell except for this laptop and my kickass bed, which nothing in the world could make me part with. I guess the only solution is to make more money!
@Chris: Thanks Chris, you’re totally right of course, I guess I’m just concerned that my priorities will be entirely differently by then (kids, family, etc.) which will prevent me from going places. Although I know all these things can be figured out as well.
And I’m glad you’re doing better for yourself now! I guess we all move around until we find what we need.
December 3, 2009 at 7:52 pm
Sadako
Yum. Hope you’re feeling better!